- I go to class and struggle to learn a new pattern for one hour.
- By the end of class, I've pretty much got it—but just barely.
- Within 5 minutes, I've forgotten it.
- So, I whip out my Panasonic PHD (Push Here, Dummy) camera and shoot a video of the teacher and a partner dancing the pattern. If I don't do this, I will forget everything.
- I go home and work on it all week—or for weeks. The problem is, working on a pattern alone is not much better than worthless. You really have to do it with a partner.
- Go to the dance on Friday or Saturday.
- Try the pattern I've been working on by myself but with a partner in the middle of the dance floor. In fact, try it multiple times.
- Screw it up every time.
- Go home in frustration after dancing one time.
My problem is that I'm virtually intolerant of not doing something perfectly the first time. If I fail after a few attempts, I become intensely frustrated. I am not keen on practicing these moves in the middle of the dance floor. A much more ideal environment would be somewhere else during the week where there is little pressure and everyone is working through moves and testing newly learned skills. There aren't many places like that. I've invited some folks over to my apartment for practice, but have no takers so far. They probably think I'm a psycho and don't want to go to a stranger's house. Afraid I'll chop them up or something.
So, I guess I'll just have to practice alone for the time being and look stupid at the club. Not my idea of a good time, but I think it's the only way.